Well I have not blogged much here lately and that is for a few reasons. #1 life, #2 have not had computer for the last 3 weeks, and # 3 surprisingly I have not had many dreams that I remember much of. Last night I dreamed about my Jazzercise friends in Yuma, and the night before I also had a dream about another friend from Yuma. Guess this means I will never forget all of my dear friends from there right? I really still miss all of my Yuma friends. I think about you all often, and I know one of these days we will see each other again. I think now I might be able to handle a trip there without getting too homesick. I know where we are now is where we are supposed to be, it has been really good for our family and everything seems to be working out well...and I keep on trying to remind myself that sometimes it takes time to make new friends. it will happen. I know it will.


In my first dream, my friend was giving me decorating tips for my house. She is so funny and when I told her about the dream, asked me if she was helping pick out a Team Edward shower curtain LOL I wish! Although I must tell her I would prefer Team Kellan! But Jason would never go for it, and honestly I dont know if I would want Kellan as a shower curtain that I share with my husband and girls. hahaha. In my second dream, I took a trip to Yuma and I was going to surprise all of my friends and show up at a jazzercise class and surprise them there too. But I couldnt get in touch with one friend I really wanted to see. I kept texting her and texting her but she wouldnt respond. The details get kind of fuzzy after that, and then I think I woke up. I dream about Jazzercise a lot. Not sure if that is a good thing or a bad thing. LOL

Cars, Houses again and the FBI

Jasons car is getting fixed right now, I think that is why I dreamed about it breaking down in the middle of the hot hot summer in Phoenix. But as it broke down, we realized that we had to hide it somehow and disguise ourselves because we were hiding from the FBI. I don't know why we were running or what crime we had supposedly committed, but we were panicked because we had to hide and hide the car. Somehow we were able to lift up the car and carry it across a bridge we were stuck on. Then all of the sudden we were able to drive the car again, and Jason found us hats and sunglasses to hide from the FBI. Then we drove to a house that I have dreamed about before. This house is a smaller one than the big house I dream of. it is more like a cottage doll house type of house on a hill, on a street with other houses, but it is kind of back nestled in some trees. The inside of this house changes a lot in my dreams. The inside this time, was bare, there was no furniture, except for a table with food on it. and I knocked on the front door at first, but when no one answered I just went in, and looked around, and looked out the back window to see if there was a good place to hide the car. There was an entire parking lot in the back of the house. I realized I didnt know if anyone was home in the house so I called hello...and no answer. But then a little girl appeared on the stairs, and she was laughing and ran up the stairs. I followed her up, and found her mom...who I dont know in real life, but in my dream apparently we were good friends. She invited Jason and I to stay and have lunch with her family, but we couldnt hide the car because the parking lot had assigned spaces. Then I started looking out the window again hoping the FBI did not find us yet.

Why I dream about houses so much I really dont know. Maybe it is because I have lived in so many different houses throughout my life?

School and Haunted Houses

I have been having a lot of dreams about schools. I think this is because I have been thinking a lot about going back to school and trying to get that all in order. I had a dream that a good teacher friend of mine was pregnant, and we were working at the same school together. I dream a lot about the kids that I worked with in AZ. I really love those kids and I think about them a lot, one in particular that will always have a special place in my heart, and I dream about her a lot too. I dont know why my friend was pregnant, I called her and told her about it after I had the dream, it was funny!

Then I also had a dream about a haunted house. As I mentioned before I dream a lot about houses. This one was very strange. I wasn't scared, I knew it was haunted, I went in anyway and went into a room that was full of alien ghostlike creatures. The one that seemed to be the leader was a girl, but she had the face of a toy doll...kind of messed up...it reminded me of the doll in toystory...the one with the spider looking legs. I grabbed the doll because I knew she was the leader, and I stuffed her in a hole that was in the floor, and spinned her around, the hit her on the head...I dont know what I hit her with. Then I left the room, but she got out of the hole and followed me. I grabbed her again and started beating her against the floor. That is really all I remember about the dream. I really wonder about my mind and my crazy dreams sometimes!

Choice

The other night I had a dream that brought back memories of the first summer Jason and I had together before we were married. I don't know if it is because it was about this time 16 years ago, or what but it has made those memories come right to the surface. 16 years ago I was a fresh out of high school 18 year old girl. I decided to move down to southern california, the plan was to live with my dad and attend a jr. college then transfer to UCLA. Jason and I had attended high school together, he was older than I was, but I knew who he was we had been in a class together when I was a freshman and he was a senior, and our younger sisters were good friends. Jason happened to live in LA at that time, and I needed a ride to LA, so he was my ride down there.

At first we were just friends, and I wanted to keep it that way. Then I started noticing little things we had in common, and how we just seemed to fit so perfectly together, way more so than I really would have liked. I tried to fight my feelings many many times, I even told him I didn't think I could ever love him. After spending every day with him for about 3 weeks, I took a little trip down to visit my aunt. I was away from him for 3 days. They were the worst 3 days of my life. It has since reminded me of of the Twilight books, the choice Bella had to make between Jacob and Edward and the way she felt in New Moon when Edward was not there, like there was a huge hole in her chest, That is the way it was for me. I was miserable without him. I couldn't eat or sleep, or function at all. there I sat there one summer night 16 years ago in my aunts guest room, miserable and alone and wanting Jason more than anything. I made the choice right then and there of who I knew I truly loved and was meant to be with. When he came to pick me up, I ran into his arms and kissed him and told him "don't you ever leave me again!" Now 16 years later we are still as strong as ever, as corny as we were that first summer and more in love than ever.

now to my dream. In my dream I was on a bed and there were 2 guys on either side of me. One was my boyfriend I had right about the time Jason and I started getting close. The other was Jason. I looked at both of them and we all sat up. And I looked at Jason and hugged him and said "I choose you!" The other boyfriend faded away, and it was just Jason and I holding each other tight, never letting go.

Not many people find their soul mate at 18 years old. I was one of the lucky ones and I am so glad that I made the right choice.

My addicitons

Well I have not had any dreams that I remember the last two nights. But I would like to talk about my addictions. I actually have 3 addictions. #1 is Jazzercise. #2 is anything Twilight. # 3 is Disneyland. The reason why I have been thinking about my addictions today is because I went to the bank today right after Jazzercise and the teller asked me how my day was and I said fantastic I just got finished working out so that is why I am sweaty and gross. Then she asked me where I worked out and of course when I told her she laughed and said what most people say, which is "wow I didn't know that was still around!" I then proceeded to go on and on for about 10 minutes about how wonderful it is, how much weight I have lost how it has changed my life, how I could never go into a regular gym, how much fun I have I told her she should try it...then I when I walked out of the bank I was swept back into reality and thought to myself, did I just sit there and go on and on about Jazzercise to the bank teller that probably had other customers waiting behing me? HA! YES I DID!!! So then that got me thinking about how many times I have talked like that to complete strangers, and the truth is I have done it a lot, and I do it the most when 3 things are mentioned...workouts, anything Twilight related...and Disneyland. If I hear any of those things mentioned, I usually will jump right into the conversation and go on and on about all the fantastic things about them and how much I love them. Today I got thinking, I wonder how crazy these strangers think I am? Does it matter? But you know, honestly, I don't care what they think, and who knows, maybe the bank teller will come try Jazzercise, maybe the lady in the grocery store line whose daughter has read Twilight but she hasn't yet will decide to pick it up and read it, and maybe for the mom and her kids at the park, she will decide that for their next family vacation they should experience the magic of Disney. I have decided it is much better to be addicted to these things than anything else. They make me happy, they make my family happy. I am a better person because of these addictions, and I will never quit!

College, Creepy man and Crafts

I am going to try and remember to blog my dreams in the morning, then the details are fresh and not quite as fuzzy, but here is what I do remember. I was in a college school hallway. Looked very much like the college I went to in NC. There was a strange man dressed in black, and he kept following me, and when I would look at him he would smile at me, but it was in a creepy way, like he was stalking me and wanted more from me. Then Jason appeared and was talking to the guy, and then Jason said I have to go and I asked Jason not to leave me alone with the guy because he creeped me out. Jason said again I have to go and he was gone. Then the creepy guy and I were in a bathroom, and he was explaining to me how to plunge the toilet! LOL (maybe this is because our toilet at home has been getting plugged up a lot) Then all of the sudden one of my very best friends I have know since high school, Holly was there with me and the guy was gone and we were walking through the halls of the college, and we passed by a door that had a sign on it that said Embroidery Crafts and Fun. I talked her to going in because once upon a time I used to embroider and cross stitch a lot, (maybe this is a hint to pick up an old hobby?) We went in and started doing crafts and cross stitching and making necklaces out of really pretty beads. I remember looking through the necklaces that were already done, trying to pick one that was colors that I wear often. I picked up one that was brown and red. it was really pretty. Then we started making friendship bracelets for each other. I remember being really excited because I remember when friendship bracelets were the "in" thing to do back in the day. I asked Holly what colors she wanted me to make hers, then I woke up!


So, college hallway...I have been thinking a lot about going back to school and that I need to do it and get a move on it. Creepy old man...not sure what that is about, maybe me trying to be aware of bad things...doing crafts with a best friend...Well that just goes to show how much I love and appreciate my friends and all they do for me in my life. Thank you to all my friends! I love you Holly! Thank you for being in my life and my dreams!

Mushrooms?

No twilight dream last night. But I did dream that I was sitting at a table with a couple ( no clue who they were) and we were eating mushrooms with ranch dressing. I picked up a mushroom and looked at it and the cap of the mushroom was shaped like a heart. Then I looked at the couple and said wow I can't believe you are engaged now! What a cute way to propose by using mushrooms shaped like hearts! Then the couple said thank you we are very happy and asked me when I could start help planning the wedding. Then we started looking at all the mushrooms to see which ones were most shaped like hearts.

My mind is so strange! I wonder if the hearts came from a pic of a ladybug that was posted on TM that had hearts on it, and the wedding thing, well I often think about becoming a wedding/party planner, and since right now I am yet again not sure what I want to do with my life, it is one of the things that I think about sometimes.

Twilight Dreams

here are the twilight dreams I remember so far, I know there have been more, but it has been a while so I don't remember them all, and of these I have forgot some of the details, so they are not as detailed as future posts will probably be. hopefully this blog will help with that. So starting with last night, and from now on I will post them each seperate, and I plan for this blog to be about all my dreams, and perhaps I will throw in some real life about the family and stuff now and then!


#1 Dream last night: A fellow Twilight mom friend and I were in a fancy hotel, then we went to the parking garage and we stole a yellow porsche. I was keeping watch while she was breaking in, then all of the sudden a key appeared, and we got in and started driving. I have no idea where we were going. We were driving fast and all I kept thinking was I hope we do not put lots of miles on this car so when we return it to who we stole it from they wont be quite as mad!


#2 playing with Cullen men and Jacob pocket people like barbies with fellow Twilight moms LOL

#3 Jackson Rathbone (plays Jasper in the movies) talking to me and me telling him that I have several friends who would love to meet him. Then Jacob was there and I guess I became Bella and I was crying to him telling him I loved him as a friend but I had to be with Edward


#4 Cuddling up with Jacob in a sleeping bag (which is odd because I am not Team Jacob) I am Team Kellan and Team Edward



*Notice my dreams have not included much about my two favorites Kellan (Emmett) and Edward. I wonder why that is?

Intro into my dreams

So I have tried to blog in the past, and never really have been able to get into it, not sure why. So I am going to try again. The main focus of this blog is going to be about my dreams. I have very vivid dreams. Sometimes they are about people from my past, or people I know now, or my family. I dream a lot about Jazzercise. Sometimes my dreams are about random things, or different times, like I am a southern belle, or a pioneer girl like little house on the prarie, or I am in midevil times. sometimes I am at weddings or funerals, or there is a lot of water, or I am flying, or there is a war going on.

2 things I dream about more than anything are houses and dinosaurs. yes laugh if you must, but it is true. The dinosuars, I am convinced I must have been eaten by one in a previous life. Sometimes the dinosaur dreams are funny and cartoony, but most of the time, they are actually scary, and I seem to be running and hiding from them a lot and I am scared. then I dream about houses and hotels a lot.

there is one house in particular that I dream of more than others, and it is almost always the same. Sometimes the colors are a little different, but the layout of the house is always the same. It is a large house and it has 3 stories. the first story, it is like a garage room or basement. the colors are usually dark, no light and browns and blacks. It is usually cold and a little run down. Sometimes it looks like a garage, and sometimes it looks more like a run down living room and bedroom, with a tattered brown couch and dirty bedroom. the second story of my dream house is a little nicer. It is in bright colors and often looks like something out of the 60's or 70's. Very brady bunchish. Usually the colors are oranges and yellows. The kitchen is a little old fashioned, but it works, and it is comfortable to be there, unlike the cold dark first part of the house. The top story of the house is the prettiest. This one is usually white or very light pastel colors. Even the carpet. Everything is up to date, modern, light and beautiful. It is the most calming part of the house. throughout the entire house there are stairways and passageways to get from room to room and level to level. sometimes these change a little, and sometimes the colors or the furniture will change a little in my dream house, but the 3 things always remain the same. the first floor is dark and cold, the second floor is more comfortable but still not that great, and the top floor is the most beautiful and best. Take it how you see it. :)

Lately I have been having a lot of Twilight dreams, which has inspired me to try blogging again, and write down my dreams, even if they are not Twilight related. I have read the books a million times, and I love the books, and I love the friends I have made because of it. It is nice to know I am not the only 30 something mom out there that is worse than my teenage daughters when it comes to these books and the movies.

So this is it. Me starting a blog about dreams, life, love. for those that might like to follow enjoy, otherwise it will be just for myself to enjoy. :)