Choice

The other night I had a dream that brought back memories of the first summer Jason and I had together before we were married. I don't know if it is because it was about this time 16 years ago, or what but it has made those memories come right to the surface. 16 years ago I was a fresh out of high school 18 year old girl. I decided to move down to southern california, the plan was to live with my dad and attend a jr. college then transfer to UCLA. Jason and I had attended high school together, he was older than I was, but I knew who he was we had been in a class together when I was a freshman and he was a senior, and our younger sisters were good friends. Jason happened to live in LA at that time, and I needed a ride to LA, so he was my ride down there.

At first we were just friends, and I wanted to keep it that way. Then I started noticing little things we had in common, and how we just seemed to fit so perfectly together, way more so than I really would have liked. I tried to fight my feelings many many times, I even told him I didn't think I could ever love him. After spending every day with him for about 3 weeks, I took a little trip down to visit my aunt. I was away from him for 3 days. They were the worst 3 days of my life. It has since reminded me of of the Twilight books, the choice Bella had to make between Jacob and Edward and the way she felt in New Moon when Edward was not there, like there was a huge hole in her chest, That is the way it was for me. I was miserable without him. I couldn't eat or sleep, or function at all. there I sat there one summer night 16 years ago in my aunts guest room, miserable and alone and wanting Jason more than anything. I made the choice right then and there of who I knew I truly loved and was meant to be with. When he came to pick me up, I ran into his arms and kissed him and told him "don't you ever leave me again!" Now 16 years later we are still as strong as ever, as corny as we were that first summer and more in love than ever.

now to my dream. In my dream I was on a bed and there were 2 guys on either side of me. One was my boyfriend I had right about the time Jason and I started getting close. The other was Jason. I looked at both of them and we all sat up. And I looked at Jason and hugged him and said "I choose you!" The other boyfriend faded away, and it was just Jason and I holding each other tight, never letting go.

Not many people find their soul mate at 18 years old. I was one of the lucky ones and I am so glad that I made the right choice.